This topic has been close to my heart for a long-time. I am a football fan, as such, could literally not name a man, player and manager that I liked and respected more than Gary Speed. Nearly every other fan in this country will say the same, even those who did not support the teams he was affiliated with. His popularity and respect went far beyond the reach of his teams' immediate fans.
I have an interest in suicide, both personally and professionally. While my PhD has focused on anxiety disorders, I also have a foundation in depression and depressive disorders. The two are, in fact, difficult to separate as most people who suffer from one, suffer from both. I have read many papers, textbooks and case studies on the topic. It makes for terrifying reading. As my focus has been on the emergence of disorder in adolescence, I think the most difficult fact I ever found was that adolescents usually kill themselves on average with 20mins of taking the decision to. For adults, the decision and the act (or attempt) are often day, weeks and sometimes even months apart. There's some serious food for thought if ever I heard it.
In personal terms I have had those I know take their own lives. A colleague threw herself to her death. My friend's husband hung himself. The list unfortunately goes on: I have no doubt it touches more family circles than many are prepared to talk about.
I'd like to quickly dispel some rumours about suicide first if I may. First of all, it is not only done by the depressed or otherwise mentally ill. No doubt these instances are the most frequent, but people can also commit suicide out of fear (especially fear of how to cope with something imminent) and also out of logic. For example, men in particular take their own life when they fear illness. My friend's husband took his own life after having lung investigations at his doctor. He took his wife for the weekly big shop afterwards, and made her buy more groceries than she normally would, making her buy ingredients for some of her favourite dinners. She found it odd at the time, but immediately knew after he took his life that that was his way of making sure she'd be okay once he was gone. He hung himself in a park only moments walk from both our homes after. An acquaintance of my dad also killed himself the same day he had an exploratory MRI scan to investigate his health. The scan later came back giving him the all clear – no signs of cancer as feared.
In terms of logic, people can often ration (rightly or wrongly) that things would be simpler without them there. In several societies e.g. island Inuits, Samoans and a few others all had voluntary suicide for the elderly, who knew that their ails and mobility were holding back their society. The Inuits of St Lawrence Island actually had a policy that if a person asked 3 times for suicide, that their family had to help them die. People do this in our Western society too, albeit in different ways. For example, sometimes people take their lives when they have lost their jobs and, although they're not clinically depressed, think that things will be easier without their partners and families carrying the financial burden of their predicament. People find it inherently painful to accept that people don't have to be mentally unwell to kill themselves, but it is true.
Another common misconception about suicide is that people appear unhappy beforehand. Often in adults you find the opposite: the decision to end their life and bring an end to their emotional and mental torture can be such sweet relief, that the time between their decision and their action can be the happiest their loved ones have seen in some time. Unfortunately, this serves only to make the act more surprising and more difficult to swallow for most folk. After all, few people need or want to be well informed about suicide.
Along with this is the anti-depressant danger zone. When a depressed person is issued such drugs, it actually takes three weeks before perceptible changes in mood are seen. However, what are immediately affected are sleep and appetite. So, the person often looks much healthier than they have done in a while and generally have more energy. Unfortunately, this often gives the depressed the energy they need to take their own lives (many reported to take time to sort out their finances, pay off out-standing bills, setting up trust funds for young family and so on). Again, it's suicide in the face of visible improvement.
The third and final facet of this is the contrast between a person's public face and their private turmoil. How many of you have been surprised to learn that a colleague for example has been unwell with depression? People are very good are projecting an image of themselves, so that an action like suicide is a surprise. “It was totally unexpected and out of character.” is a common response. The person's words are often seen as contrary to their action: it is not odd for someone who has planned to take their life to openly talk about their excitement for their children's future. Some say they either can't mean that or that means they weren't suicidal when they said it. Both are wrong: someone can be excited about something, but their mental turmoil is so painful that this positive future is not enough to fight the urge for eternal peace. Also, it can be a way of making clear to family that they are not the cause of their impending death: they they loved them and looked forward to a life with them. Unfortunately, they could not fight their own battles well enough to be alive for that.
In the case of Gary Speed, all we knew until today was that he hanged himself. Hanging is premeditated: it's not like a gunshot, where the decision and action can occur within seconds. (For example, Kay Redfield Jamison, the famous author, psychologist and manic-depression sufferer, always vowed never to keep a gun in the house as she knew she could and would become suicidal in her depressions. Her ill friend agreed the same, reneged on it, and ended up killing himself with it). So, hanging is premeditated, or at least 'mediated' if that makes sense. The cable/rope needs to be sourced, to be long enough and to be strong enough to take the person's weight. The knot may need to adjust itself under pressure to cause the constriction of airways. A way of going from rope slack to tense needs to be found, usually without reach of the ground so that the person cannot renege on their action once they feel the noose tighten. So, for anyone, Gary included, to work all this out, would take time: not a split-second.
The common presumption was that Gary Speed was depressed. Occam's razor (of several explanations, the simplest is the most likely to be true) certainly suggested that was the sensible assumption. The fact that friends say he wasn't depressed didn't matter: often many can hide it from all but their closest family. The fact he was positive on Football Focus is not against this theory, nor is speaking of the future.
While depression is not necessary for suicide, I still am not ready to accept that this did not play a part. His wife says he was not depressed and he may not have been clinically, however he may have been dysphoric and I see evidence of a depressive cognitive style. His mother's statement at the inquest said he was a glass half-empty man: not an optimist. Seeing the worth in things is both a huge risk factor for depression, and a symptom of it. He was known to help others with their issues, but internalised his own problems and did not open up, even to his wife. This is also not mentally healthy, and leading to emotional trouble that if not depression itself, then certainly close to it. If he was not clinically depressed at the time of his death, I do believe he showed depressive cognition and personality from the evidence I can gather.
Not only did his wife say he wasn't depressed (although she also said he did not even really open up even to her), his previous team doctors have said the same. I fail to see this as adequate evidence however: the most recent man last evaluated him in 2010. Would you accept that because someone didn't show cancer over a year ago, that their cause of death wasn't cancer? Of course not. His current GP also said he showed no signs but as said before, people need not show signs of depression. I have been clinically depressed in the past, and not a single GP has known about it.
What does seem to be troubling folk already is the fact that intentional suicide is not the conclusion of the inquest: rather it's a narrative verdict as the coroner could not prove beyond reasonable doubt that the act was deliberate.
Now, Occam's Razor says it was deliberate. None of his actions are contrary to being suicidal, despite the fact that they are contrary to common sense. As Redfield Jamison says, “I have a hard-earned respect for suicide's ability to undermine, overwhelm, outwit, devastate, and destroy.” He spoke to his wife of taking his life four days before he was found hanged. The situational variables also point that direction: his suicidal ideations paralleled the difficulties in his marriage, and his action took place after an argument in which he first tried to prevent his wife from leaving the house by barring the back door, but 10mins later she managed to get out of the house and went for a drive. As a psychologist and as a rational human being, I genuinely believe he took his life deliberately.
However, this does not mean that I do not understand the ruling of the coroner. To prove beyond reasonable doubt that the action was deliberate would have needed a suicide note, and supporting evidence such as proof of arranging finances would have supported this (had it been premeditated far enough in advance). What is possible, albeit unlikely, is that Gary sat on those stairs in the garage, the cable around his neck, waiting for his wife to come back. In other words, a cry for help. I certainly have experienced this: I have wrestled a knife away from my ex's chest, and cleaned his blood off my floor from the scuffle to get it off him. However, his family have all said that a plea for attention, especially so dramatic a one, is out of character. As the girl friend of a messed up and suicidal man in the past, I do believe that his wife would have known if he was prone to attention when they disagreed or argued in any way. He could have sat there, waiting to be found (while she was locked out of the main house, shed keys did allow her into the outhouses, one of which was the garage. This may have been for practical purposes though, as they stairs provided the height from which to hang. This also reduced the chance of his sons finding them, as they were in the main house at the time). While waiting, he could have fallen asleep and ended up on the end of a taught cable. This is unlikely: it requires a more complex set of happenings, including the probability of falling asleep leading to hanging. It is also contrary to his suicidal ideation, which he shared with his wife, only four days previously.
Anyway, while this is my tuppence's worth, this is not a publicly indexed blog. It is not meant to be part of the stirring that people have been doing online (and that has been horrible: talk of murder, of a Sunday newspaper revealing that Speed was gay, talk of sexual molestation as a young player that he couldn't face up to: though he was brought to football fame by a man who has been done for paedophilia with young players). From the outside in, it's my professional opinion on things. It is also a chance to dispel some of the suicide myths that people have: these myths never become as painful as when such people are touched by suicide.
For those who are interested, I cannot recommend Night Falls Fast – Understanding Suicide enough. It is written in simple enough language that Joe Public can read and appreciate it: it is not a jargon-filled textbook, but a wonderful, intelligent, and academically informed summary of many of the issues surrounding suicide, written by a practitioner who has dealt with suicide patients and also tried to take her own life herself. I'm prepared to lend it to those I know personally: just get hold of me privately and I'll pop it in the post.
Reference
Jamison, K.R. (1999). Night Falls Fast – Understanding Suicide. A.A. Knopf: New York.